shes finding shes in love....

with work breaks at Panera. haha.

in the middle of working a double shift on a saturday, and listening to servers complain all day long, ive come to determine that the best way to spend that hour and a half break is none other than to sit in a comfy corner booth, chow down on a half bowl of broccoli cheddar soup, half portabella and mozzarella panini, sip half and half filled free refill dark roast coffee, and wander the internet. all of which can be accomplished sitting right where i am this moment: panera. i never realized how awsome this place that karrie has been talking about forever until just recently.

a few of the girls came in to see me at work today. it made my morning happier. bailey, melissa, diana, sophie, and rachel. i love those girls. its going to be sad to have to live without them when the time comes. i dont know whats going to happen next semester. rachel and i have been talking about renting an apartment, which i would really LOVE to do. but... ijust dont know yet if it will be worth it or if it will be too much of a struggle.

the past few days i have had oregon on my mind. well, ive had the year after i graduate anderson on my mind to better put it. i dont know what it is im going to do for sure. i say i dont want to live in west virginia but it would be nice to be close to grandma for a while. then again now that ive gotten used to living close to all resources its possible i would go insane for driving everywhere. i say i want to go to oregon. which i do, i really do want to. from what i know so far. i do want to go to graduate school for occupational therapy and i do want to travel. the only question remains is whether or not this is the right time. its hard to predict that. i dont want to skip out on the opportunity then learn that i loose it becuase i get tied down somewhere else. i keep entertaining the idea of joining the peace corps or some such like that for a year between anderson and grad school. but i dont knwo how realistic of me that is. there is no doubt that i have the desire. i just dont know what i would do or how to get there. i guess its a bit of a self confidence issue. im trying to keep my ears open to God, but i think right now we are at a draw. im at a fork in the road and ive got no clue which way im supposed to go. i guess it is a little bit in the future, but graduation will be here before i know it/ or ready for it im sure.

backpacking across europe. that would literally be amazing. im not even going to lie. not solo though. definately not solo.

build your own television receiver
staying home can't be that bad for me
cause i'm not scared
but i'd like some extra spare time
easily earn me big money

i'm a modern girl but i fold in half so easily
when i put myself in the picture of success
i could learn world trade
or try to map the ocean


i've had it with you
and mexico can f*ing wait
and all of those french films about trains
cause i'm not scared
but i'd like some extra spare time
i'm not scared
but the bills keep changing colors

they say california is a recipe for a black hole
and i say i've got my best shoes on
i'm ready to go (ready to go)

[Rilo Kiley:Pictures of Success]