consumption by distraction

Completely distracted. This is the fashion I have been about life as of lately.
Im not sure why, or how to nip it.

Scatterbrained. Too many tasks at hand.
Cant focus on one. Cant even get the motivation to start.
Then once the start is just barely brushed and a book has been opened--
more blanks.
Now what was it I was doing?
I dont really have enough time right now, put it off for the morning. Then
sleep in. Then work so no choice. Oh wait theres a test coming.

Comes often enough to effect daily life.

Goes often enough to wonder if it was really happening anyway
and to get confused with are you sure youre not just
living the description of lazy
and ever heard of senioritis?

You just need to focus.

Focus.

On only one subject! And dont worry about the rest. Thats hard.
Actually pretty near impossible, seemingly.

Organization is key. Stop being so tired all the time.
Stop reaching for the planner.
the planner isnt going to get anything done for you.
And neither are the to-do lists.
Yeah the recycling needs taken out.
Yeah you need to call those people.
But isnt this important? Why cant you focus?

You know youve got that thing later.
You know there will be people there, several.
Just suck it up and go, it would be good for you,
you may regret being there.
But you will be glad you made yourself go when its all said and done.
Wont you?
Well, there go your nerves.

Then there are the headaches.
Shiatsu only gives you bruised palm muscles. Acetaminophen only makes your neck feel tense. And caffeine? Dont even go there, youve had the three cups (one before each obligation) for the day.

Out of time now.
Where did it go anyway?